Feeling Philosophical

OK, here I sit, all alone while Steve is at his guitar lesson, and I start thinking about my life. I understand that it is a physiologic change in the hormones in our brains that give us the preception of time. As children, time seems to crawl...we can't wait until we start school, or have a boyfriend, drive a car, graduate from high school..these years go by in, well, years. Now, these years go by in minutes. How did I become a grandmother so soon? I feel as if I was just reaching my stride as a mother! Now, I have 2 more beautiful children in my life...what is my role? What do I have to offer them? Will I be a "factor" in their lives, and if I am, in what way? I have bought books on being a good grandparent, just as I bought books on parenting. At least I face this task with a little experience under my belt. As always, I am a dreamer..I envision summer days at the beach, family cookouts, backyard bubbles, blow up swimming pools and baking cookies. I want to pass on family traditions and values, and at the same time allowing each family to create their own traditions. It's odd to think that my values will someday be deemed "old fashioned", but I believe that good values are timeless. I want these days to last forever, with the sweet smell of baby lotion once again on my fingers, green peas and cherrios on my kitchen floor and the gentle caress of a baby's hand as he slips off to sleep. And that smile...can anything else in life fill your heart with such joy?
Well, enough of my ramblings for one night...Grandpa Steve just got home. He looks damn good for a grandpa! Maybe that's what I have to offer our grandchildren, 2 people who love each other and them unconditionally!! Enjoy!!